2003-07-31 - 6:06 a.m.
I am void
I am feeling like a Dementor...wait a minute..I don't suck joy out of peeps but I am emotionally void inside...
Helloz...wassup with the world? Haha..after seeing my rather confusing, lost and bursting with force previous diary entry, you would probably think I've made up my mind or I am still wandering around like a maniac?(is tt the word to use? 0.o) Anywayz, the truth is I have no idea. I don't feel a single thing for anyone now... HomeWork? No feelings... ToiLet? No gan jue... Voldermort--->Pure Hatred? Hahahaz... Yeah, don't ask me why but I've been very pissed off with him... He SUXZ!
So I have been shutting myself up away from all these matters of the heart and concentrating on more important things which I would like to know.. Its like being walled up in an oyster.. Yeah...like that knowledge sort of halted all my feelings for them... Maybe God is telling me Hey the time is not right! Just keep focused on studying! Well lets hope this empty feeling keeps up then... Itz not very easy to gush about anyone in this state... but I feel that if something does happen(God forbid) I might get ignited..(is tt the word to use again?) Yeah yeah, I am in a dormant mood...hibernating in my shell and not caring about these things as my view on the world is currently awfully bleak...
Had my A-Star interview yesterday..and I was the first one from AJC...hahaha...Like setting the standard liddat or more likely, to show how bad I am..there were like 14 HC and over 20? RJ peeps signing up..and only 9 AJCianz..Diaoz -_-!!! Are AJCianz scared or what? I have no idea.. Anyway, there were only 2 girls there? Jacqueline had Temasek Sem so only Ren Hui and I were girlz..lolx! IJ! 4/1! Yeah, the rest were guys...saw Paul Cliriad, then got other guys like Shawn(tennis), See Hong(PS)... whatshisname guy and whatshisname2 guy... We were so scared but ultimately it was fine lahz.. check out the prob..out of 150? peeps only 35 will be chosen.. 0.o like tts alot!?!?! And from there we can see whether MOE is biased to u koe...RJ HC..itz not fair..cos some of them aren't interested at research at all and they just sign up.. OKay, and I just read RR's blog that a RJ girl hung herself..JC life is not a bed of roses...Life is awfully stressed up here and crammed with pressure that you might just want to explode!!!! I am already exploding and my dad is yelling at me to get ready..wah liao! Scolding me and telling tt they r at the same side as me, to help me..yeah yeah..
Got to go...muz raise National flag for sch...council duty....