2003-08-08 - 9:10 p.m.
Life suxz
Rehiz, I just blogged this morning but now nothing to do...so yupz! Here online with Char who is using the next computer to me...whee~ and we are at my house! She came over for lunch and we had pizza and hunter(more like hunted) chicken the one Jing Lun gobbled up when he was at my place...(damn sad now cos over at irc, I saw Voldermort in alone in a channel then I left then he quit ajchoir channel...) Sigh I think we both deserved it... ;'( but nvm, I don't care? I hope, I think, I wish, I dream...I really wished we could be friends again..but he is really petty and everything and he was the one who stopped talking to me first when he was all right...was it my fault? Yeah yeah...cos I couldn't forget him... and Char says heck him.. but theres so much hurt there that the death cannot be natural and forgotten easily...argh! I hate him so much... for all the hurt inside.. my first serious crush and it has to end up tt way? Way way sucky...even I'm not tt bad to tt KL..yeah yeahz...sighz! HELPZ! People of the world!
Anywayz, I had fun during National Day Celebration! I was backstage helping peepz and also danced to a song..dunno whats its name too..but learn very hard then forgot the steps! Sighz! So make a fool of myself... Claire was feeling sick but she continued doing the AJ Rap and tt stupid Agyesh threw her off beat and blah blah cos he thinks he is so good...but I really admire them being able to go up there and do the rap.. yeahz....I am sorry but Voldermort has just made me so angry and pissed and I don't care! Marilyn, Chew Yue, Ren Rong etc wadeva u say... I DID TRY! I DID! But he refuses and acted like a *b-a-s-t-a-r-d* I am sorry for strong language but it really was like tt until I wonder how did i ever get a damn crush on him? And because of him, I am super damn scared about HOMEWORK! I am being paranoid I koe but like one of my very early msg wif Kelvin Chew... it just suxz after tt... WATEVA! I am not making sense here! Yeah national day was fun!!! But my damn day is ruined cos of him! And he is so qian bian! And yes he go scold char bad words... wat kind of loser is he?!?!...Can I please erase all memories of him? I finally found out his true colours.. and yes, I don't care I don't care I don't care! I wish that a fire would just blaze day and night and get rid of the hurt caused by him in my heart.. I mean I don't think even Seng Hong, Eugene, Kelvin, Marc will be that bad...why must I be stuck in this situation?!?!... i really think I have damn bad taste...perhaps I should just bury my head in the ground and never believe in crushes love and like again! Fine....and when I go to school...I have to see his qian bian face his damn arrogance and conceit...and the worst thing is HE IS IN .... yeah! ARGH!!!!!>..I wanna change school! I wanna live my life again! WHy didn't I get that UWC scholarship? Why didn't I go the CJC and stayed there? WHy didn't I retain one year in CHIJ??? Why why why? Why was I born Victoria? Why wasn't I somebody else? Why couldn't I have been born during World War 2 and fight in the planes? Why did Rommel have to die? Why Why why?
Yes, I am super mega pissed... I don't want to admit tt my life is troubled over this but it is and yes.... Why must it happen to me? This was my first problem then choir and council and then peer pressure...equals to bad grades and everything cos I can't concentrate!
Argh...I will tok about Homework but sighz....tt idiot takes up so much energy...tt wadeva sui bian! I toked to HWK today... *weak smile* and yes asked him about nat day celebration and he said yeah very boring...haha! Sighz...and I don't koe whether he looked at me cos his spects keep reflecting but I koe he did but maybe just to recognise me.. HWK I am just so scared...cos of tt idiot...so sorry! But you dunno...and I dun want you to koe... And after what my mum sayz I always say sighz.... cos she says I must get a catholic bf but yes... Argh!
LIFE SUXZ!
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