2003-08-09 - 1:15 p.m.
Hurt, Hate, I wish I led a different Life
My conversation wif Voldermort... I'm sorry if u think otherwise of me now but I am so hurt and I just wanna show u he isn't wat u think he is..it is already hurting to put it inside
[21:34] [DyN] this isn't sorry or anything...neither is it meant to be understood but I think we really haven't forgiven each other...i dunno why..but this suxs and I don't care if u want to keep it this way i frankly don't gif a damn... but I don't want to live my life wif this stupid nagging feeling and even if we hate each other to the max core...I just wanna say wat? yeah wadeva...this is getting nowhere my main purpose was to ask if we can be frenz,...but that doesn't seem possible I dun koe why cos both of us just hate each other so much..so letz just get our lives moving on.. 2 yrs in the same class ...heck..itz up to u!
[21:36] [Voldermort] [DyN]'i frankly don't gif a damn' - if u really dun give a damn y ask?
[21:36] [Voldermort] [DyN]'i frankly don't gif a damn' 'my main purpose was to ask if we can be frenz' y contradict urself?
[21:37] [DyN] cos i dunno??...mayb i do want but the knowledge tt u hate me so much just makes me feel negative.. i feel confused.. so yes, what can i say? pretend to be brave and tough and dun care or wat
[21:41] [DyN] heck heck heck....this is obviously not the time to say and maybe there will never be tt time...so we will just leave it at tt...so u can be happy wif ur own life the way u want the way of ur own
[21:41] [Voldermort] i got NO FREAKING IDEA wat u r talking about, can u pls get to the point?
[21:42] [DyN] I DID GET TO THE PT!!!!!!!!!
[21:42] [Voldermort] too bad i dun get it
[21:42] [Voldermort] maybe is becos of my poor neighbourhood english
[21:42] [Voldermort] ya so that's that
[21:43] [DyN] did i ever say tt.....ur poor neighbourhood eng...did i ever say tt...oh yeah 32/50 is real bad..
[21:43] [DyN] do i care if itz too bad
[21:44] [Voldermort] ok i betta get to point
[21:44] [DyN] and ur pt is
[21:45] [Voldermort] 1: i dun hate u to the core, i just dun wanna talk to you
[21:46] [Voldermort] 2: i dun normally talk to girls unless its on 'professional' level
[21:47] [Voldermort] 3: well unless i m very bored, i dun really like toking to girls, which u need to refer to point 1
[21:47] [Voldermort] so it goes round and round
[21:47] [Voldermort] and in short
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[21:47] [Voldermort] and ya, have a nice day
[21:48] [DyN] u dun haf to be so damn sarcastic .... if u want to be u have the wall in front of u... and seriously...do i even want to tok to u?..hmz, why am i even doing this? GET LOST!
[21:49] [Voldermort] well i can see that u really like to talk to urself, and i'm not being sarcastic
[21:49] [Voldermort] i'm just being myself
[21:49] [Voldermort] and if u view that as being sarcastic
[21:49] [DyN] u r not being urself...forget forget it k...............
[21:49] [DyN] !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[21:50] [DyN] how can i koe u when u shut up like a clam...?
[21:50] [Voldermort] refer to point 1
[21:52] [DyN] i saw pt 1 already.... and the prob i have is just tt U IGNORE me.. even if u dun tok to girlz u can still tok to marilyna and geraldine on a pro level but ultimately u just dun wanna tok only to me! Get it? or more like i got it
[21:52] [Voldermort] so the prob is that i ignore u ah?
[21:54] [Voldermort] well then u gonna live with the prob with another year and 4 months
[21:54] [Voldermort] it's gonna be like that
[21:57] [DyN] I DUN LIKE U.... I ABHOR U does tt sum up everything? U think too highly of urself...why does everyone care if i lose ur damn friendship is it even warrant to be like tt? and yes u r one petty person and no word on the whole planet can ever describe u
[21:59] [Voldermort] thank u
[22:00] [Voldermort] since we have bad vibes abt each other
[22:00] [VOldermort] i suggest one thing
[22:00] [Voldermort] we better stop toking to each other
[22:01] [DyN] FINE...HAVE WE EVER BEEN TOKING ANYWAY? SO WHATS THE DIFF...LLWMS
I koe u r thinking why am I bothering this 'poor' guy who clearly doesn't want to have anything to do wif me? Why am I clinging on to the past? etc.. but I assure u I really really don't like him anymore and yes, everyone is like pissed off or upset tt I am treating him the same way he treats me but even if I try to be like normal it can nv be cos he still acts like a jerk...argh!..and I have to see him everyday... Maybe it is peer pressure or I myself koe tt I can nv be at peace wif myself if i dun heal this hurt inside...so yupz.. and I can never live wif hate inside cos I like peace...why do u think i keep sorry even though I did nothing wrong? Sighz...and most of u will probably think I am making a mountain out of a molehill but if u can put urself in my shoes and feel the pain caused by hurt, u will understand y...
I AM SORRY TO U WHO HAVE TO SEE ENDLESS RAVINGS BUT HOPEFULLY THIS IS THE LAST TIME I BLARE OUT THIS MATTER COS MAYBE I MIGHT JUST DIE TMR AND EVERYTHING WILL BE OK....