2003-08-20 - 10:48 p.m.
Depressed but not willing
Hello.... people who have seen me today would have realised I look sian with Life, depressed with sorrow and like about to give up on Life liddat.. hahahaz! I admit I was because I was getting jealous on why others' Life could be perfect except mine..on why things happen to them and not to me.. *sobz* Yupz, I'm super stressed up about my Life, my council work, my choir, my school work and my own personal life. Seriously, I've no time for personal life tt I see no difference between a robot and I. Hahaz as what some people might think, but honestly... I need time off.. hopefully I can go for the movie this Saturday with choir peepz...providing I don't piss off my mum which I just so smartly did just now..I think something is wrong wif me! >
Anywayz, loads of nice stuff happened to Claire yesterday... will not write it down.. cos it is like spreading just as what Johnson wrote in his blog..but itz about something interesting that made me envy Claire..haha! Well not the person but rather her luck. It all started cos she couldn’t finish her fried rice, SOMEBODY picking up the courage…and I being the faithful sidekick encouraging the guy with all my might…hmz, come to think of it, I must be pretty irritating to him…I better not say anymore..lolx to him… Anyway, hahah he is so LUCKY and Claire too…and sometimes I think it isn’t fair…*Warning: whining starts now* I am very happy for Claire..truly I am..not to mention more scandal stories to talk about, right Kelvin Chew? Yeah, and when u envy, u wish it could happen to u… o.0 honestly,…and people will say u r despo.. but seriously, there is a bit of desponess in each of us even if we don’t show it.. So the rest of us just continues with our humdrum lives…struggling and wondering why people aren’t interested in us. The worst part is people are interested, but they don’t show cos they think u will look at that them in a diff way which is most probably the outcome, and whether it works. *winkz* depends on how u go about it. Yeah, so I AM HAPPY FOR U CLAIRE! Sometimes it is good for your friends to know cos they will help u..after all I don’t think Claire would have known Russell had not his class being undying in their endless teasing of him… see see.. so yeah.
Homework was a super depressing factor yesterday although I do not know why… It could be the fact he didn’t reply my sms yesterday? When I asked him hey R managed to pluck up the courage…yeah yeah he didn’t reply …wadeva and how ermz, I am afraid he might know, how his class peepz might read Johnson’s blog and read mine due to the link, how he and I can never be together…sighz! And I also sad over him not going Daniel Chan’s concert…Hey not fair, someone got free ticket lor..dun need to queue up, Claire just gave lor… then he said his class going.. but Homework isn’t lor… I think..unless theres a pleasant surprise but the likely chances of it are remote. Haha, finally knew Kelvin knows abt Homework…and Racing car..hee hee! Cos I asked him…then he was like yeah..but he cannot recognize.. duhz! HWK pic..The picture is too diff unless unless to a trained eye, it will be easy..and Kelvin said he will look ard for a guy’s whose bag front pocket is always bulging. X_x… and he said from an educated guess, the guy is from 05? Well done Kelvin! Five upon five! Even a person of IQ 80 and below can tell lor…. And Kelvin has proven it.. (jking jking) I’ve been too open about it on my blog… Johnson and Kelvin kept cracking SUPER LAME jokes on homework like Victoria, u shuld do ur work wif homework..like diaoz! Hahah! But I mean it really brightened up my day… I managed a smile… Thanks Guys!...and See Man said she envy me? Cos she said I got so much work, have council and choir… and yet still can manage and can still be chirpy! Thanks See Man! I needed that a lot to help me endure my tiring and depressing day! And Vivien gave me a hug when I needed it most! Sighz! Thankz all of u who made my day! I paid attention during econs lecture again…and now I’m afraid that 05 peepz look at my direction when I look at them…