2003-09-18 - 5:43 a.m.
Smilez...Secret Smilez..
Rehiz... I didn't know my previous blog caused so much confusion.. Like it wasn't meant to be.. Hello? Chewy I didn't mean it tt way! I was talking about Ade.. And I love ur comments..but haix.. ultimately it is up to me after all right? But it is not nice going ard saying he is sucky.. when he is like so great to me.. :) Sorry.. and ZQ I didn't mean it tt way! I didn't say u do...but u got to admit there r some people who change crushes like clothes..
:D
It is a sign..
I was kind of happy yesterday.. some stuff that happened.. and I keep saying its all my fantasy...
We had econs lecture which I was trying desperately not to sleep... it was kinda of boring and yes..only 3 more weeks to PROMOS! I am just heck caring hahaz... ermz..anyway.. he listened to lecture.. which was kind of good.. haha! But i sill felt sleepy.. Anyway after econs lecture, we had chem lecture but I still dilly-dallied.. and I got to admit something! MARILYN IS SUPER OBSERVANT! She is like my eye? She helps me look at him and haha.. he never realises she caught him.. lolx.. (I got to go wash up soon!) and Marilyn says he was walking by the stage and he talked to his friend first before looking up at my direction for some time ..and just so happened I looked at Helen Chong! Okay then we turned to go upwards and Marilyn said he looked at u and I said really? Then she kind of exploded saying as in explode in the cute way marilyn does exclaiming: Hey..he looked up again! and i was like huh?...and by the time I looked down he walked out already.. oh well.. :D Can i try not to be pessimistic for once and just enjoy this sensation?
After school.. its a different story..had cca heads meeting abt Open house blah blah.. then GM for council.. I think Mak is mad.. GM every Wed..can he just go mad? Yeah then played carrom with Li Hui then continued on when she went back..waited until Mak, Candy, ROu XIn and Yvonne safely out of council room then found Johnson to come and play with me inside council room.. And I found a good technique to play carrom.. So fun..but I lost to my kor.. he was kind of ermz.. not warmed up yet..haha! I was quite tyco!
Anyway later went out to study at canteen..cos cos... and also Char studying there.. then later decided to play carrom.. so went in got weiyang, nice new council board powder etc out to play...hahah first paired with Charlotte.. we were okay but still lost to the guys.. and I was still tyco but Weiyang said I was good, fast learner or sumthing and improving VERY FAST! Haha! yay! Got commendation from guru lehz.. and I did hit a many good pieces in but sometimes, really cmi.. and Yong kiat was like u sure u can play anot? Of course I can.. prove it to u.. Then second round I paired weiyang, char paired Johnson then we played.. and weiyang and I won! YAY! it was a good attempt on our part.. i learning alot on rebounds.. :D I'm really learning.. yeah.. but I am like the only person who gets down on my knees to play..nobody does tt...Char says cos I wanna worship her..HAHA! Weiyang said like half of the seeds we got is i shoot in.. haha they said something about being on fire. oh well. We went to study after tt though Johnson challenged weiyang..
Yeah...homework was in the canteen and he moved first time cos 05 guys went to join him and they played carrom..then he moved to centre before moving to in front of noodles stall next to chicken rice..facing us(back facing the stall)..I speculate: Why didn't he face the stall like he used to? ... NVM! And then later he went over to play carrom with 05 guys and then they left.. without him.. he was still STUDYING! Haha... kind of happy..
Then later at 8.55? Went over on the pretext of helping Johnson get Lemon Barley drink and talked to him.. and Char said i talked a lot to him..and he was like smiling ALOT! he looked so shuai.. yeah and we were talking..first about school work, promos, how he think he is going to drop econs if they force him although he realises the value of it.. I was M-E-L-T-I-N-G.. and later about drq and case-study..and he never stopped smiling i dun think i did.. and he looked at me while talking sometimes.. like eye-contact..but can't see properly through his spects.. Blehz.
Then we got chased out so bought Johnson his drink and saw two dead ants in it.. and I went over to homework and I was like going to join ur frens? He was like no..going home and then I said hey look at what the dispenser gave me..and he looked and smiled and was like no wonder my fren always prays there are no ants in the lemon barley.. hahaha.. He was so cute.. then I was still packing then he walked by and said i'm going first..bye.. and I sort of ran after him and said hey Homework(I said his name k!) and he turned back with such a broad grin.. yupz.. and said yes ..(Looking at me!) and i was like haha! didn't know char called u Xu kai.. and he thot for a while and said haha nvm..bye bye! Sighz..i haven't used this word for a long time.. homework is ddg.
Anyway earlier before all this happened.. char went to canteen.. then saw homework but thot he was Xu kai and went Xu kAING over to him and when he looked up, char was like..oopx. u r not xu kai.. ahah! And later when i was studying, I was like char he is there.. and Char was like u mean tts Homework? I called him Xu Kai! hahhaz..
Char said Johnson said that Homework was smiling broadly.. and Char said Homework looked as if he was really enjoying himself.. He KEPT SMILING! N I KEPT MELTING? Oh well..hahaz at least we talked and he didn't like brush me aside...and he smiled too and looked at me too.. What a bonus..
But why would a guy want a stupid girl like me?.. For the academics part..I had one of the worst days of my life.. wanted badly to cry.. but I won't cry.. I won't cry..