2003-09-19 - 5:49 a.m.
Dreaming away: Pure fantasy
Remember my previous entry where I said I won't cry?
I cried.
All becos of maths test.. It is like the only time I could have passsed my maths instead of failing.. but becos I didn't hand up two questions of answer scripts... and handed up my tutorial instead.. wow! So DAMNATION! And my pride was really hurt.. I blasted myself in the worst way~ to cry. And Lee bee cheow isn't any better..
I just was totally strickened and agonised.. but u koe what..she is just ... Anyway, I just dunno what to do.. 3 Fs and 1 C.. like how am I going to get promoted?
And Thanks Chewy for the hug which almost resulted in a kiss cos I wasn't prepared for the hug and had my mouth in the wrong direction.. :P At least we screamed..
We played floorball/ street-bandy and well, its quite fun.. really.. I had fun..but I sux at it..tho pretend to be enthu and good at it..hahah shot one ball in.. blehz.. was playing right under the nose of 05 and my kor spotted me..think he wanted to die of laughing..
Anyway, econs lecture..nothing much really.. its just that he looked up at my direction again! I really needed something happy after a horrible day.. and when we went down the steps, I said hi and he said hi back.. but in the shy way?..blehz..
Went to play carrom during break..play wif myself..blahz..and against weiyang which i lost the game again.. but i'm improving k... after school, played carrom wif kar Boon and beat her! Wahoo.. but she abt same standard as me.. whereas for weiyang, played again and lost.. well if johnson cannot beat him and I can't beat Johnson, there must be sumthing wrong if I beat weiyang..
Anyway, after school, had to take PW pics.. rather good chance for me to take pics of.. they were playing soccer.. hehehez... but not clear.. i hate this camera alot.. but ultimately in the canteen, we took one of him studying..like quite obvious but he didn't see... we were the only ones left anyway.. haha! he is so hardworking..not like me a slacker.. haix.. I just feel like dying..
And we got chased out as usual and were packing.. didn't go over to tok to him..no time.. and i just talked to him from where i was standing.. and he just answered.. more like mumbled. at times I just couldn't figure out what he said.. And he packed slowly and finished b4 us and hanged ard waiting for us.. X.x.. yesterday he walked off so fast, today he waited? And was playing ard wif a carton trying to shoot it in.. or kick it in.. not sure and he walked out wif us, not saying much except to answer back my questions.. Char says she thinks he is quite shy when there are people around.. well he did look and sound abitt shy.. like he didn't know what to say.. but he is still cute.. hahahaz.. I can't believed he walked slowly.. and waited for us too..just hanging ard there.. And Char said cannot be waiting for Weiyang.. Homework doesn't know him, cannot be for Char, Why would he want to wait for a crazy girl who calls him Xu Kai and cannot be Johnson cos he just pissed him off yesterday?.. Ermz.. then she was like he was waiting for u...
:)
He is having PE today..
What link is that? i don't know..
And I finally extracted about full convo btwn char and johnson yester yesterday when I walked over to Homework.. apparently Johnson said( this is not the exact but the gist) Hey look at homework.. he is so happy.. the whole entire day he was so silent and moody(?)cos he couldn't do his tutorials and then Victoria went over and now he is so happy..
Char said that homework really looked so animated..and Johnson said he started to move his hands around again... :) Well is it because of me thats why he got happy?
:)
I am not sure..
But I sure hope it is...