2003-09-276 - 11a.m.
Secretz Smilez~Secret Crush
Gonna gripe here... not about studies lahz.. although I gripe to myself.. and I've discovered I became pretty whiny? Yucks.. I never thot I had tt in me.. its like HIGHLY GROSSING ME OUT! Great great my life is turning topsy-turvy...and today we ended lessons at 10.45am today!!! Cool sia? Then stayed back to study, well do maths until pengz but still cannot get integration... haix.. can really kill myself.. and i got this pimple growing ... oooo~ -_-
Darn.. stayed back last night and talked to Marilyn...from council.. FROM COUNCIL! Marilyn Loo! Yeah was talking then AB camp cropped up and hahaz.. she asked about my weight and I told her 51.3kg and she was like u dun look 51.3 kg.. u look like u might be blown off in the wind altho I koe u r not.. right.. And I went to the toilet and scrutinised myself very carefully.. ALL RIGHT! I am too thin for my own good.. seriously speaking yeah.. oh manz! I need to play more tennis? Right... and Marilyn from 15! and gera agreed.. But then Gera said homework is so skinny so u r ok.. BUT TTS BESIDE THE POINT! Argh... (u people r thinking wat a big fuss it is to kick up over it.. but I dun wanna end up like some psychopath anoroxeic person who is so skinny that she is like well use ur imagination)...
Haha In honour of kelvin, the other guy is called 'him'.. I was about to tell char abt 'him' and she blurted out I think u two r very pei! i was abit taken aback cos I didn't even tell her the guy yet..and when she heard she said I was too good for him.. okay and i am more pei wif homework... but come to think of it, I will totally totally not koe what to say if 'him' asks me.. hahah! Okay..thinking too much liaoz... but nobody could suspect it is 'him' until I told them the cca and they were largely surprised.. Well, can tell nobody expected it to be him.. but anyway, since kelvin was able to guess who is NR, he shuld be able to guess 'him'...
An ex-Rafflesian psychologist came to our school and talked about overcoming failures.. and homework was like yeah i remembered her but he daren't put up his hand to show he is a Rafflesian.. he is so ... cute?(i haven't been gushing much abt him) and yeah.. when she talked about crushes..like the feeling u have is somewhat related to stress he sort of smiled broadly like to himself..
And yes, I get super stressed up when he is ard... I dunno how girls can go over and talk to the ones they like freely and not be afraid to show they r interested.. I like become petrified when he is ard.. i get very tensed up and dunno what to do kind of thing..and even Roy remarked tt.. and just can't see why I get so tensed up when he is ard... and I haven't smsed him for a super long time.. seems ages since I talked to him which is like only last wk? I haven't talked much to him yet.. and I seriously think he isn't interested.. all those signs I used to read into? Yeah, i guess it is all concindence.. he isn't interested in me.. he just err... I dunno? yeahz.. wadeva..and Johnson says he isn't stupid he ought to know and suspect.. but given my current attitude to him, he might think otherwise.. but seriously my feelings for him is as highly-charged as b4... I shuld do something to him but got no guts.. I don't think I WILL EVER tell him.. :'( So i guess I will just live my life like tt and hopefully sumone picks me up...
And I realised something.. my class 15 always clash with 05 on Thursday and other days when they are right besides us.. And I never saw him.. At phy lect and econs lect.. I nv saw him.. sighz! And I might have bumped to him at corridors said sorry but never noticed him.. I might have stood behind him to buy food but never recognised him.. and thats all we will ever be.. Friends..
Gtg to sch and study yeah I sort of changed the date and timing.. its act. Sat at 8.30am.. Haix.. gtg gtg
GOT TO DANCE! Got to dance Got to dance.. Broadway Rhythem its got me everybody dance! Broadway rhythem its got me Everybody dance! Out on the Great White way in each merry cafe orchestras play our sadness away Broadway Rhythem its got me Everybody sing and dance!