2004-04-17 - 6:03 p.m.
Sick and tired....
Hello peeps.. argh! Why do i always fall into a usual bad mood when I start diary entries? U see me in school jumping up laming myself with lame jokes.. and I AM NOT FOLLOWING CLAIRE! I got better things to do then follow Claire...I do not emulate anyone but those I truly respect... and even then it might not be anyone living..or have ever lived.. great I'm pissed now... over? Econs! De-MORALISING subject if you ask me...esp if your essays CMI.. and if theres like everyone who gets it but you cant do it sort of situation....
And I DROPPED A SUBJECT... I ought to perform well cos now I have 3!!! But nooo... I still do as badly.. argh! Its so so... discouraging...
But nvm, this is only one aspect of Life! =) SMILE SMILe... abit hard lahz...hahah... am I being hypocritical? Sometimes I feel like I cant get depressed cos its like well, showing him I am weak and everything... and reasons I give for being depressed sux..and yeah.. I imagine he hears them in disgust...oh well... I just feel restricted that I cant get depressed...
Hmz.. and I interviewed a J1 potential councillor... that I WOULD LOVVVVVVEEEEEE to get a crush on.. wahz.. if you hear me mentioned him b4..hes the one whos english is very zai and his father and whole family english is very zai!I would get a crush on him then! and even now.. Wow! I would realli get a crush on him.. serious. He is so zai and the sort of guy I would like.. wow...
I'm sick and tired.... and I am getting depressed by the minute.. shitx.. and I won't go blaming the weather..I won't go blaming anyone.. I won't go blaming myself.. cos then... I would be dead... Don't miss me k?