Friday, Jun. 11, 2004 - 4:58 p.m.
the 2nd week has passed..
I'm feeling listless
mArilyn is thrashing me at checkers! heh heh! I dunno how to play lor.. *blush blush*
I need a life! I have no life out of school! No life out of home.. gagz.. as in I really have no activities to do..
Study study study... on a slacking day..everything just falls apart! Like for now... and I got no mood.. feeling under the weather...even my mum says when I do things my mind is not here... but if my mind isn't here, then where is it?!?!?!
The mind is one sad little thing
And I stabbed myself today..on purpose.. was on some sadistic mission.. but failed.. so now you will see a red swelling somewhere...
No..not a pimple... gagz.. my pimples are killing me...and the scars of battles that they leave behind.. highlight the lost fights with red marks..that everytime I look at them I shudder in horror and wish to die?
And I think... nahz forget it...
I think I'm going crazy...
And AB CAMP!... argh! I rmb ab camp fondly.. haha! After AB Camp.. my entries went on a roller coaster ride of emotions..all because of HOMEWORK! Haha i saw him go to school and study again... hee hee
Yeah...okay I admit.. i can't concentrate on anything cos I'm thinking of him... stupid right?.. Even tho I'm not consciously thinking of him.. at the back of my head yeah...my whole entire mood is listless.. I'm mean I can't just erase the fact I miss him.. how I wish I got something to get my mind off him...I need to change something.. Argh! I need a life..and a lifeline!...
And Marilyn has just got crowned again...argh! My checkers sux..
Heehz... I need to enjoy the simple things and laugh at them...
BUt Argh! 2nd week passed and I haven't studied anything....