Sunday, Jun. 13, 2004 - 10:13 p.m.
Do you know something?
I just feel like complaining.. alot..
I dunno why I'm so blue... even if hes back..its like.. I just hate everything now! Myself included... *rant rant* Its just very pissifying tt I'm feeling this way... cos when I'm mad, I will realli attitude.. and dao people all sorts of stuff.. sighz...
My mum is being.... well I know she wants me to fail my mid-years.. God Bless her... but I'm not staying home any longer to help with all the housework!...
I'm just feeling crapped up..all because she tried to advise me on something she knows nothing abt...I mean other times its no excuse.. but this time.. Its about me...my BODY..not a feeling or problem.. not something she has to suffer with but yeah its a defect... but noooo....she goes talking as if she knows...so yes fine, I admit i told her to stop talking about things she dunno abt... she din reply after tt which is surprising cos shes always the first to rebutt...
Sighz... and I just came back from the Eucharistic Congress... which of course russell won't exactly speak fondly abt..I am suppose to go forth and be broken so that I can help nourish others.. I look at the selfish way I'm going and I feel like a complete hypocritical failure... Sighz..
Grant me strength Lord for all my weak failings..
I met four pple there..hahah surprisingly.. I met BENEDICT! ANDREW! JOYCELYN! and VALERIE JAMES from my sec sch... hahah and I said hi to the first three cos Val was too far...and Malcolm wanted to say hi to ching and joycelyn.. for goodness knows wat reason.. but we exchanged the formalities before grinning stupidly at each other and making our great escape... people do stupid things...
But it was really a fantastic mass... and great homily! Seriously.. The Love for the Eucharist.. something that cannot be described.. it was rather an experience for me.. knowing that the Bread of Christ is He in person rather than a symbol..for it makes him more real to me...
I need the strength
I am too weak and tired...
Even Love.... does not really sustain..