Thursday, Dec. 02, 2004 - 9:03 a.m.
Someone else
I feel real cheated when I deleted an important message from my junk mail.. what was i thinking? Now I can't retrieve it back.. I'm sianzed out. And i can't ask for it to be send a second time. So I AM REALLY pissed.. but no, I'm not going to let it affect me.. oh no.
Argh.
I played LAN for the first time yesterday..played until my eyes turned watery.. so now I know what Gen Y means. We played for a solid three hours and a half..and I was dead by the time we played warcraft.. so I can play much LAN games now..tho I'm no expert.. but I love battlefield..and I really miss CS.. alot. But everyone is so good at it..makes me feel small. But I feel real bad for Gen Y.. had to play boring games for us.. tho he din say anything. lolx. He prefers Halo. Later went to watch Incredibles.. and all i can say is that the BABY is so cute! So sweet and cute! Argh! jack-jack rulez and he is so endearingly cute! Ok.. I'm gushing.. I'm gushing.. and bought a new book Persuading ANnie by Melissa Nathan.. hmz theres a Victoria inside..and shes married. Which makes me a tad tense reading about her life. Anyway, its quite good cos its a modern parody on Persuasion by Jane Austen.. who is one of my fav authors. So yes, I do enjoy a good novel.. romance pls! I feel quite satisfied with it! After all she did do pride, Prejudice and Jasmin Field! =)
Plus, I realised I haven't been invited back for OGL workshop.. wow! I never felt so hurt.
Argh!
I'm getting very sleepless nights. Although I sleep so late every night, I can't sleep fitfully. I'm always tossing and turning. Never in my life, have I've been siezed by doubts and confusion. So much so I end up a wreck. I always thought sleep was a form of escapism for me.. but now, its a nightmare. I try. But It doesn't work. Its not that no one understands me, its just that no one knows what to do. Its easier said than done.. and I'm trapped now. I can't do it.
I wish I wasn't myself.
But someone else.