Friday, Dec. 17, 2004 - 1:29 a.m.
Hmz.
Of course... I'm back from Malaysia..
Tedious.. with a huge overdraft. I've been spending..or rather my mum has been spending on my behalf. Sighz.
I've been dreaming of Belgariad too much. Seriously, every night I just dream of the story.
Adn everything seems to be a trance. Its like I can just walk out of this dark shadow and finally enter the light. Everything is monotonous and grey.. My mind is losing its grip. Haha.. if I don't recognise you....
Thought of this.
I see the depths of darkness building
I see you there.. my heart hurls
But it is not to be.. for you must be happy with someone else.
And that someone is not me.
I wonder why in this inky sky
Why true love is not true
How love does not change everything
But rather blinds till appearances deceive.
I muse within my scattered mind
Is Love all that it is
Why is Love so glorified when there is nothing to uplift
Why pain comes and goes like the autumn breeze.
I ponder upon the highest peak
Why hatred is deeper than before
How can Love sharpen its mortal enemy
And happily slay us all.
I meditate against the waves
To try see beyond reasoning
How Love is all I talk about
How much it abhors me so
I fling myself across the street
To see the edge I hurl towards
How come happiness is all but a dream
And thats why I'm so drugged now.
Dang. Now tts a good angsty poem. For a good august situation like i'm having right now. Sometimes, I even surprise myself. But nahz.. this poem isn't good enough. for me. Hmz... but a poem for WY would go somewhat along those lines.. hmz hmz.