Wednesday, Feb. 23, 2005 - 4:45 p.m.
Desperate
Heyoz.. two days have passed since I've last seen Russell.. it feels like forever..
And so is this poem I'm writing for Daryl! Its taking forever cos I'm trying a new style..and I keep changing my mind on what to capture in the poem.. his love life or how he feels.. its gonna be a super long one.. plus he is a good fren so must make it nice.. sheesh!
Anywayz, I'm pretty sick. My throat is husky and yeah coughing spasms.. thanks to RUssell. I'm always ok and when I meet him, I fall sick again. Lolx.. I told him I resent it when he tells me to get better cos he did after all make me fall sick again. Anyway he said hell did not end with field camp.. cos this smart wondeful mother called up and complained the OC treated her son unfairly.. of course, what makes her so sure her son is gonna be treated more nicely now? RMb: Hell hath no fury like an OC's scorn.. I think he is giving the whole lot of them shitx now..plus he is now gonna charge them for things they closed one eye to last time.. hmz.. must pray his anger boils over.. and hope tt son tells his mother tt his chances in the army are blown thanks to her loving words of concern. =D
He passed his IPPT today tho he thinks he did improve as much as the rest.. o well.. that is alot to be said..and I believed he did just fine.. =D
Uh oh! I think I'm being daoed sighz.
I'm still sick.. heehee no matter how much I slp to recuperate.. and GET the poem off my chest but yeah.. its pretty tiring and the process is long..
Somehow I feel a little ill-disposed..comes to do something abt my name apparently.. MOOD SWINGS
The name of Victoria gives you a clever, quick, analytical mind, but you suffer with a great deal of self-consciousness, lack of confidence, and much aloneness because of misunderstandings. Your idealistic and sensitive nature gives you a deep appreciation for the finer things of life and a strong desire to be of service to humanity. There are times when you experience inner turbulence at your inability to say what you mean. It is far easier for you to express your deeper thoughts and feelings through writing than verbally. You find pleasure in literature, in poetry, and in your ideals and will turn to them when you feel you have been misunderstood. You are deeply moved by the beauties of life, especially nature.
Because your feelings run deep, you must guard against the ups and downs, being very inspired one minute, then moody, reserved, and depressed the next. Your reactions to people vary according to how you feel. You tend to be secretive and noncommittal about private matters, yet at times you will talk effusively in order to hide your self-consciousness or to lead others away from personal subjects. You are inspired by encouragement from others, yet suspicious of their intent. You crave affection but seldom find anyone who understands your nature.
Your first name of Anne has given you a rather quiet, reserved, serious, studious nature. You have sensitivity and appreciation for the finer and deeper things of life, the beauties of nature, music, art, and literature. The people who mean the most to you are those who can offer you intellectual companionship. It is only when you are among those who understand your deeper nature that you can really be yourself. The experience of having your remarks taken lightly or belittled, particularly during the early years of your life, has caused you to keep your thoughts and feelings to yourself. You do not express yourself spontaneously when conversing with others; hence other people may often regard you as being aloof, and even unfriendly.
Your difficulty in putting your deeper thoughts and feelings into words can lead to problems in more intimate associations. This name has caused you to live much within yourself. You are rather easily hurt or offended. At such times you can withdraw into a mood, and may not even speak to others. Aside from these points, this name contains many fine qualities. You are a thoughtful, analytical person, and you know your own mind, even though you may not speak it. You are very conscientious and competent in all that you do. You take seriously any responsibilities that you have--in the home, in the community, or at the job.
Your name of Neo contributes sensitive, creative, and idealistic qualities to your nature that could be expressed in a variety of literary or artistic fields. You desire harmony and refinement in your environment and in all your personal associations. Although mentally quick and intuitive in recognizing the thoughts and feelings of others, you experience a lack of fluency in verbal expression in responding.
Kind but shy, you appear calm but suffer inwardly from nervous tension that saps your strength. As a result, you experience moods of depression and self-pity and often avoid facing issues. A lack of confidence leads to procrastination, a need for support and encouragement from others, and a vulnerability to be taken advantage of in many situations.
Hmz.. quite true lahz.. but not sure on how true since everything I took is first name one..lolx.. but they seem to have clashes.. oh wellz..PLUS I dun have trouble SPEAKING!
The name of Russell has made you rather reserved and, at times, secretive about your personal affairs. As a result, people find it difficult to understand you and you suffer through loneliness. You are interested in understanding life along scientific, religious, and philosophical lines. Also, you derive much enjoyment from reading and from being out in nature. At times, you find it easier to express your thoughts in writing, rather than verbally. You are astute regarding the value of money, have good business judgment, and can drive a hard bargain if such is required. This name has not allowed you to express fully the softer, more spontaneous qualities of your nature because of its practical business attributes.
You are matter-of-fact in your attitude to things, not easily swayed by others, nor overly compassionate to the suffering of others. You are an ambitious person, have expensive tastes, appreciate quality in all things, and desire to have the best money can buy. You are inclined to judge things according to their material
The name of Will creates a very passive, easy-going, friendly nature. You love people and desire to get along with everyone you meet. Your desire for sociability and the pleasant things in life makes you too easily influenced through your associations. You have imagination and many ideas but you lack the drive or initiative to put these into effect. It is difficult for you to say "no" and mean it or to carry through with any commitments you have made. This name makes you too lackadaisical. The influence of this name is to lack practicality, system and order, organizing ability, astuteness, and the ability to make decisions and act upon them.
Due to procrastination you have many unfulfilled desires. You often lean upon the strength of those around you for guidance. You appreciate the finer things in life such as good clothes, pleasant surroundings, and friendly companions. You find it difficult to tolerate circumstances that are not up to your particular standards.
The name of Lin has given you a strong desire for success and all the amenities of affluence. You pursue your undertakings on a grand scale, based on your business acumen and ability to visualize an overall plan. Your enthusiasm, aggressiveness, and salesmanship are often sufficient to bring about fulfillment of your ambitions. However, in the attempt to impress others with the scope of your success, you can over-extend your resources to the point that you have inadequate means to cover your basic expenses. There are times when you would be advised to start in a smaller way, and gradually reach your desired level of success through perseverance, patience, and attention to details. When things are going well, you have a generous, magnanimous nature, ready to offer support and assistance to others.
When under stress, you can become overbearing and belittling in your attitude to others, and inclined to express sarcasm and temper. Should you become too inwardly focussed on your own world of personal relationships or material possessions, you could suffer disappointments with those close to you, unfulfilled ideals, or material losses.
Goodness it sounds like Russell.. indeed.. I realli have nothing to say...but how true only Russell can tell..
He has been smsing and he is tired.. hmz... miss him lolx..
And hopefully i can get a job! And yah..Russell took it upon himself to help me ask around..lolx.. so sweet and also quite desperate for me to get a job lolx..