Friday, Apr. 08, 2005 - 12:01 a.m.
FOR YOU MAKE ME WHOLE
[this entry is all in small caps. cos i'm feeling small, minute and miniscular]
why am i feeling paranoid about u?
i do love you alot. really i do. but sometimes, i feel i am not good enough for you. plus, i also hurt you alot. =(
i dunno why i feel this way. why i feel you would be much happier elsewhere.
i love you so much and i dun understand why i can't let go of this paranoia. i was never like that before.
now it seems... i need you. hmz, but you give me everything i need.
so i guess its my side that is having discrepancies.
i'm sorry for hitting you in jest. i will try not to again. i mean i would hate it if you hit me in jest, hence i should not do it.
and i am proud of what you. especially when you are selected for this fep. i am just so proud of u. my heart wants to burst in pride. of course, i am bitter its not me. but since its u... yep. plus the fact God gave it to you. does he mean you are the right one for me? it just go along the reasoning that i want to be a pilot but cant. and God fulfills it through you. i mean how neat is that?
i dun care what others think, but i think you are special, wonderful and different. u brought meaning to my life and am always there for me. you gave me so much with your love. i just can't tell you how much i love you enough. words and actions cant even begin to measure what i feel for u. thank you so much for everything.
WITH YOUR LOVE I FEEL STRONGER AND HAPPIER TO FACE THE WORLD. COS I KNOW YOU ARE THERE. I JUST PRAY WE WILL WORK IT OUT. I PRAY YOU ARE THE ONE.
I LOVE YOU RUSSELL WILL LIN YAN SHAN.
THIS WAS SAID AT 1 YEAR 6 MONTHS 0 DAYS 0 HOURS 0 MINS SINCE YOU CONFESSED YOU LIKED ME. AND ONLY A FEW WEEKS LATER WHEN YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME.
I LOVE YOU TOO.